Ovtober is a rollercoaster

For me when I think of October I get flooded with memories. I see the videos of us singing in the car together on our way to the drive in rave thinking about how we laid looking at the stars on the way back.

I think of said the sky when we were so happy to see each other again, dancing with each other, then sending it to the Grand Tetons. Recording our traveling moments together in the water, hiking, by the horses.

Then I also think about how I was yelled at for bringing up how Michael made me uncomfortable at Madeon and how you called me insecure and evil for trying to make yalls friendship feel weird since hes just a friend thats been around. I kept begging you that I was sorry I didnt mean to make it feel like that I just wanted to bring up my concern and then finally all those things you said at the end.

Like its such happy things in the past, but to end our last october with such a nail in the coffin makes me sad. I wish it happened any other month outside of the one with some of my happiest memories with you.