today marks the end of another wedding season for me along with the end of summer. and even though all this time has passed and we enter our last portion of the year you still pop up in my head.
they say things end when you let the memory of someone die. and the memory of you still resides. you know, at most weddings I catch myself day dreaming of my future wedding and you happen to be the only person I could imagine in those scenarios. even now after everything you still pop up in my head during those situations , you were the closest and only person Ive thought about spending my life with.
you know being with you the frustration was never about life with you. I always mentioned how at peace I was when you would be next to me in my arms. the true frustrations were that it wasnt working out with someone i wanted to be with so badly. everything else drove me insane since I had first met you because I was so concerned about how everything could be okay.
and after all this time of not seeing you. not talking to you. nothing regarding you. I say without hesitation that I can only see the good deep in you that still keeps your memory alive in me.
you know the often say a good judgement in character is what someone does when they're alone and no one is looking. and I think you do it all. donations to the homeless without telling anyone. checking in on your real estate patient without anyone knowing. and being nearby when no one sees it.
hope my memory lives on inside you. even when you've moved on with life.
and whether or not. or whenever i do move on. i hope it lives in me too through all seasons.
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