11/15 how do you explain

How do you make sense of the world that the person you love doesnt love you anymore. How does it make sense the person you believe is your person doesnt choose you? How does that make sense? Like how hopeless and painful must that be to not be chosen when youve chosen that. After all this time I am still so grateful for what we had and still appreciate it so deeply. The way we love nature, the way we arent scared to try new things, to chase our trips, our dream, each other, I really appreciate the person after all this time and honestly get pretty sad when I miss you. Almost a year of missing you, but its pretty reassuring to know my feelings don't change easily. sigh it's been quite a year.