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I couldn't sleep last night because I knew it was over between us. And yet I still feel that we weren't meant to move on from each other. There's just some voids that will never be filled in both our hearts. A portion no one else will ever touch. It's realizing that true love exists, but fairy tales do not. That unconditional love for you is something that I have even in this moment. How could it be anything else? Lovin you is easy, and hating you will always be hard. Not because of our actions towards each other, but because of who we are deep inside. From our physical intimacy as we held each other and said I love you in our last night to all of the mundane moments in between where the simplest version of you lit me up. 

Thanks for showing me your true self these past years. Thank you for allowing me to be vulnerable and you being vulnerable to me. Vulnerability is the essence of connection and connection to others is existence. And being with you felt like a reason to exist. 

And in some distant place in the future when I see you in our new lives I will smile with joy and think to laying in your lap in the park, saying we love each other in bed with tayto at our feet, and everything we learned from each other. My heart is so heavy right now, and I feel so hurt, but I cant hold onto this bitter feeling. I loved you, I love you, and I will always love you. 

-Nay

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